I am the mom of these AMAZING Brewer Sisters. I wanted to make a post and I don't have a blog, so I thought I would just take over theirs for a day....My Post has to do with trusting the Lord completely. Such a hard one for me, especially when it comes to my kids: Why I think I know better or can help them or love them better than God is beyond me...but based on my actions this is what I think.
Lashae has made no bones about it; she is CALLED to the mission field....not in 4 years after college....not when I get around to thinking it is a good plan or idea, but NOW! Her words: "I don't know what I'm going to do, I don't know how to pay for it, I don't know what all the details are, I just know that I love Jesus more than anything and I want to tell other people about Him too."
Well, I can reason this away and I have 100 different ways...there's people RIGHT here who don't know Jesus... or, why don't you learn to teach or become a nurse so you can help people become educated or give them medical help....and then you can have a job and more likely afford to do a mission. It never sits well with her. She wants to go and do it now and she wants to to NOTHING else. She does not want a backup plan, she does not want to put it off, she wants to go now- she says she does not have all the answers, she just wants to go because the Lord has told her to go and He will provide all the answers.
O.K. this is where it is hard for a mom especially of a 17 year old girl...who will probably be a valedictorian of her class and has amazing brains and potential in whatever SHE wants to do in her young life. I reason, why would God call her when she has so much potential in so many areas. But here is what I've come to realize; when Lashae is standing before the Lord someday and He asks her why she was NOT obedient to Him - she can not say, "Well my mom thought....or Lord I had so many opportunities for college and a wonderful education." She will be accountable for herself and I don't want to get in the way of that. And just to clarify, even if she never went I know the Lord would still love her and I know that she would go to heaven when she dies, because we serve a God that loves us so much and He already paid the price for us to have eternal life with Him in heaven. But, when the Lord calls and when Lashae has asked the Lord continually what He wants her to do with her life, and He answers...she must respond. She WILL stand before Him someday on judgement day and so will I.......and I want God to say to her, "Well done". And the most amazing part to me is SHE wants NOTHING MORE than to obey. That is how the love of God works....once He lives in us, if we walk with Him we WANT to serve Him we WANT to love His people, we want to do what is laid on our hearts to do.
So as a mom my job is to PRAY, PRAY, guide, press in and know the Lord and His voice for myself, ask the Lord for direction for her, and for me, and for the Lord to give me peace and TRUST HIM with my girl. He loves her more than I do and He will take much better care of her then I EVER EVER EVER could. He created her and knows her heart, I just get the privilege of being her mom and learning as much as I can about her.
